I am most in awe of God’s faithfulness in the seasons where He continues to be faithful even when I am not.
Someone once outlined for me how to pray. It was an easy acronym to remember: Praise, Repent, Ask, Your will (submitting to His will instead of our own, even after petitioning for what we want). And sometimes this helps, to remember that prayer isn’t all about my requests and desires, but also about praising and thanking the One who is making all things possible for me.
But sometimes prayer doesn’t fit into that neat outline. Sometimes prayer is just an honest admission of the state of our hearts. Sometimes that means admitting the ugly truth of our mistrust and unfaithfulness, and asking our Father to find us there, meet us there, and cover those places with grace.
“Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways” – Glennon Doyle Melton
Fear has been a big theme lately.
Or rather, how to overcome fear. And in the last few days it occurred to me that we look at fear and grit our teeth and determine ourselves to overcome. When the reality is, the choice to not fear isn’t a choice we can make. Rather, the choice to trust replaces fear. That’s how we overcome.
“Three months ago you couldn’t have even imagined yourself here now…”
And that’s exactly the point. I couldn’t have possibly imagined. But that’s also exactly how God promised to work:
Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or imagine, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen. – Ephesians 3:20-21
God wants to do more than we imagine. And in these past four months, He has.
I’m still catching up on Easter sermons from some of my favourite churches/pastors. This morning I watched Red Rocks and they made it really simple this year: love changes everything.
And it does. God’s love has the potential to change everything for us. It’s so simple.
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour”
Oceans, Hillsong United
I graduated from university in early December, went home to celebrate the holidays with my family in Denver, and came back to New Mexico shortly after ringing in the New Year in Arizona. My job as a student employee ended with my graduation date, and I was in conversations with my boss about hopefully being hired full time. This period of waiting between graduation and a new job left me with an extended time of unemployment.
That extended time turned into 6 weeks of unemployment, along with not knowing when I will start working again.
Granted, 6 weeks is not a long time in the big picture. But for someone who has been working consistently since high school, six weeks of not working (and not being on vacation) is a very, very long time. Fortunately, I learned a lot: